Everything is growing

I was sitting in the community room and facing to the house of our dogs. My eyes struck with the leaves of the Indian trees in front of me. I show all the branches have a leaves.  The leaves as a whole have side to side even in the last part of every branch.  This is something in every human being.  We are all pilgrim people on our way toward wholeness of life. For three months living in the community as a young sister many things happen, with the good and not so good experiences, made me realized that we are all in the same boat,  no matter how many years the person in the religious life is not a guarantee she is free from conflict. The conflict is between ourselves that produce emotional or spiritual discomfort. As the youngest in the community I cannot demand a witness, each one of us capable to become witness, in fact I will be frustrated in this reality in my present moment. I am a witness. I have to open my eyes and encounter with their uniqueness as they encounter with my uniqueness. Every person has back ground, as well as all grew up with the different atmosphere family. 

Sometimes I try to understand why people doing this and that and for me something is not properly, and all of my answers was every person has two influences; from outside their self and from inside. Outside them are atmosphere in their family, cultures, how their parents and environments treat them. And from inside are our genetic from our ancestors, our way of responds, life style choices and even God within.  Even the ways we express our love are different, some with gentle and some with challenge. Actually my expectations with the person or moment produce conflict within myself. 

The conflict within journey together with the awareness and understanding.  That is open to grow.  Like the leaves of the Indian tree, is always side to side with the branch in the middle, human being as I am growing together in my positive and negative, love, egoism, goodness,  influence from  inside and outside as God creation.  Living in wholeness is never achieved completely in my time, is always in the way, the whole of my life. Everything is growing. I can only make effort but everything will rely in God alone, he is the true healer.

bykristprast